Crying after you

I love you. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul. You are the air I can breath, you are the sunshine in my dreams. You are the dark, the deepest thing of my soul. You tease me, you please me. I cannot be with you, you cannot know I breath. I breath moment by moment just because of you. You are my angel, you are my devil. Why couldn’t you stand by my side? I hate you. I hate you with all my envy. How could you be so happy while I am screaming after you? Do you want to heal me or do you want to kill me? Why… Why?